Chapter 15 Your next journey! Theory

First of all to start off, i have warned you the last whole chapter many times and i will do it again this part is dangerous! So keep thinking about that, most people that read this, i expect that they are not yet busy on it (i truly hope so). This chapter will be my story, you can use it also as path working in your own way and build it up from the meanings you gathered yourself. What ofc is my whole point.

My story

I started with an meditation and i already had the feeling that it was 'time' to die and yes i accepted the fact that i would stop existing, not out of depression but just simply that i was ready for the next level.

I can also write one version of my story of my past, but that can create a problem. Because of me seeing different versions of myself in complete lives through dreams and visions, from birth to death and experiencing it all. Its hard to conclude wich one is still real, i am just one version of the same idea doing its simple job and possibly many others from Divine Providence.

I will only tell the story of the meditation and how it went and how i keep on returning to that state to learn even more.

It was time for me, i knew it for a couple of days. I even talked with one of my best friends about it back then, the strange sensation of being called from something higher then you can imagine or comprehend, no logic, no science, there is none of it there.
It also felt like, welp my time is over. I have experienced enough in and outside my consciousness.

So when i truly felt ready, i said goodbye to everything in its own way.
I went into my personal meditative state and just do the thing, went into my astral form and after that into my mental form, from there on i went to explore. I went beyond the abyss on the astral plane before, so it should not be hard right?
I was wrong...

I saw a big shining start, a white one above me. I had a choice though to go 2 ways, i was more interested in exploring them both first. All had things from my past that i was facing, lessons moments, choices...

Eventually i could go to that sun and i went inside that sun. It was not hot, just nice and warm. Then i heared infinite voices. It spoke to me claiming that it was god, it was beautifull i need to say. But it was not the end of my goal i just knew this.
I still listened though what it all had to say and it warned me to be ready to do the thing that i would never ever do...

Then i went to move on, saw 2 paths again and could follow them both, again with the memories etc etc. Then i saw another big sunlike sphere and just before i wanted to go in it...
A big dragon appeared in front of me, he called me out for my reason and logic to go beyond this point.
I told it, that there was none and that it was time and that i was called to do my job for Divine Providence.
After saying it, i noticed that i got confused by myself. How did i know this?

Then the dragon spoke, good you are beyond, pass if you will. Afterwards i first started a conversation, asking the dragon some questions. He looks scary, but once knowing it, its actually a cool guy to hang out with, also a bit like a long lost friend.

Then after the conversation i started to move inside that sun, first it was just bright, but then it became clouded or misty all of a sudden. I was determined though, my Will has never been so strong, i was feeling like i was coming home after such a long time and nothing could stop me.

My trauma's of my life showed me, confronting me. All the pains, all the hits, the betrayal, love that was fake and many other things. I kept on walking, ofcourse in tears, because i am still human. I was even more determined of thinking about the positive side of it, look where you come from and where i am now. It gave me so much more Will to go on, i went far beyond my limits.

Eventually everything cleared up, but became darker and i started to fall. I was so determined though, that nothing could stop me. And then i saw it eventually, the guardian of the abyss.
He told me that if i wanted to pass, he needs to destroy me.(from that moment on i lost also the connection with my body at full, i really felt dead and free at the same time. Then it also felt like that i was taken over by my essence itself, back then i didnt knew what it was, but i knew that it was very pure) I asked him why? Then he told me, that is the order he got. That gave me an idea after hearing and i started to understand the whole situation and reason behind it and also what my experiences meant at that moment, again 2 paths just opened up in a sense). Also i was so determined, even this could not stop me! GO BEYOND!!!

And so i said yes, destroy me. And then i got eaten up 'alive' with all horrific details in it, but i did not feel pain. It actually felt as an relieve, my idea became purer from every bit destroyed from me and i even felt my ego going away. But the idea, PLUS ULTRA stayed in a sense.

Was just an idea, nothing else. Feeling, floating everywhere, seeing, experiencing, inspiring even kings and queens from the past etc etc. There is only a limit that i can give, because there was none and in all of that there was one big voice speaking to me. An idea existing out of many ideas, one prime idea. Life itself, the universe itself, God.

There were questions about love and life, knowing if we existed. It said that it does not know about our existence, yet experiencing us non stop. There was no time, there was no chronologically order. It was just there and being there. The issue is, the experience goes beyond the human brain of how it is evolved currently. To give a good description, even our languages are primitive to give a good explanation of what it is.

Also the idea became stronger after every questions, more and more kept on filling it up. While being a part of it itself, letting it talk to itself also gave it a new experience.
Then the idea changed and my task is given from that point on. I felt initiated into something, wich i can barely comprehend.
I know though from that moment on, that a lot would change and things will roll differently then i could understand before.

I also understand the difference between body karma and divine providence karma in its full essence. 

But the first couple of days after this experience, i became dark and cynical. The information needed its time and i knew that, it needs to drip down (like water) through the floor from the highest till the earth, but when it struck, it struck very very hard!
From that moment on also, i felt like being carried. To continue of my task, writing this book is just but a small feat in this task. Things started to work out also in a natural manner, wich is incomprehensible, no logic, no science is able to understand this. Atleast not yet.

But i am trying in my own way, to help the evolution of mankind. I am nothing more then a low soldier in this battle, in this fight. My biggest dream always has been to fill the world with super heroes, so that everyone is truly free and work to their limits in their genes. To serve each other, to serve everything, while still ruling at the same time, it sounds like a children's dream, but for me its real. Even if it does not happen, it does not matter to me. As soon as that fire has started in your heart, that primordial fire you will understand.
The real masters only show themselves once every while and make a difference just by appearing.
Also no matter how you end up. You know that you are being carried and that all what you get is part of your task.
And yes in some cases you cannot complete the task in this life, wich you will disappear or die and get reïncarnated after this experience, that this version of you now was only used to get you to that point.

Or some can even choose to stay and eternally experience non individuality, the number 1, the all or some even go to the 0.

But once working on these tasks, you will also notice and understand why everything works in you as a person and how things run and why you got all of these gifts, good and bad. Not only that a little secret between the reader and me, unless you need to reïncarnate. Everytime completing a task, gives you new qualities and you lose some of the old, to fulfill it.

The current elite of this world, think that they are guiding life in the way they see suited and whats best. But they are without connection, they are without God. They are Death, with Choronzon the gatekeeper of the abyss as their God. They are at the same time in a sense just an illusion of their own being and their power is also an illusion. Once beyond this point, you will understand it. 
I got lucky at this point though and many others will to. Once reaching this point, you will notice even in the greatest tyrrany, even in the greatest lies, deceptions, betrayals etc etc. That you are truly free, because a part of being carried is that this path and hand that is carrying you, is unendingly big. It has no limit, there are still dangers though and you are still human at the end of the day. 
And for the ones thinking this is it? 

Have you already forgotten?

PLUS ULTRA!!!!